My story of confusion


Hi, naa peru sneha (i changed my name). madi Bhimavaram.
Naa goal IIT lo seat sampadinchali ani but naa inter lo adi kudarledu anduke nanna ni request chesi long term lo join ayya Guntur lo adi kuda hostel.
Naa life lo hostel ade first time... appativaraku amma vallani vadili okka roju kuda lenu. Hostel lo chala bayam vesindi kani andaru chala baga kalisipoyaru nenu untundi hostel lo anna feeling ee lekunda chesaru.

Clg lo konni rojulu aindi... Appudu naku tana gurinchi telisindi... Naa frnd ki line vestunnadu ani first lo vadante chala kopam chiraku vachedi.He's such an idiot amukune danini. Kani appudapudu nato matladevadu nenu kuda edo mohamatam koddi matlade danini.

Clg lo appudapudu chala lonely ga anipinchedi chala edchedanni. maku january lo oka mains exam jarigindi next Sankranti holidays vachai intiki vellanu. Holidays madyalo results aroju phn chesadu naa marks adugudam ani tanu cheppevaraku naku results vachai ani kuda telidu tarwata results chuste 85% vachindi parledu edo vachindi kani nenu expect chesinanta raledu. Next malli April lo exam pedataru kada appudu baga kastapadi raddam inka manchi marks techukovali anukunna.

Holidays aipoyai malli hostel ki vachesanu.Feb lo oka roju chala lonely ga anipinchindi becoz of a very bad reason chala edchanu naa lyf lo nakantu evaru leru anipinchindi.Aroju Mahasivaratri Naku Krishnudu ante chala istam and aa sivudu and naa krishnudini kalipi adiganu naku life long undela oka manchi frnd ivvamani. nenu ila adigano ledo ala phn mogindi evara ani chuste tanu. aroju tanato chala sepu matladanu naa badha anta poindi infact nenu chala happy ga maripoyanu. Anta magic. Ala naku chala takkuva tym lo bestie aipoyadu.Appudu anipinchindi veedini naa lyf loki aa krishnude pampinchadu ani. Tanu vere ammailto matladite tattukoleka poyedanni vadu okka roju kanipinchaka poina chala kangaru padedanni tanu kuda ante nenu okka roju kanipinchaka poina chala tense aipoyevadu. oka roju clg lo godava ayyi vadi left eye lo blood clot aindi next day vadu class ki raledu chala kangaru paddanu. Valla frnd chepadu tanaki debba tagilindi anduke hostel lo rest teesukuntunnadu ani chala edupu vachindi ventane washroom loki velli vadiki call chesanu naku edupu aagatledu. Evening break lo amma ki phn chesi corridor lo nunchuni matladutunna pina hostel nundi vadu chustunnadu nenu kuda vadini chusanu ante edupu tannukuntu vachindi chala sepu edchanu naa edupu chusi undaleka vadu kindaki vachesadu. Next day evaru leni tym lo vadi kannu ni deggaraga chusanu chala bayam vesindi amte next moment devudiki mokkukunna vadi debba taggite every saturday nenu non-veg tinanu ani and vadi debba taggevaraku fasting chesanu. oka roju enduko naa krishnudi to anni share cheskuntunte oka thought vachindi nen enti non-veg tinanu ani korukovatam enti vadu ammailto matladite nak vachina prblm enti.. Aa kshanam naku aa feeling ento teliledu idi love ah emo nenu aa feeling ni define cheyali nukoledu kani nenu tanato gadipina prathi kshanam naku gurtundi nenu aa feeling enta ani alochistu vadito spend chese tym waste cheyali anukovatledu.

Ala chala rojulu gadichai nen vadiki baga addict aipoyanu.Studies ni neglect chestunna ani naku teliselopu exs vachesai as expected exam lo chala poor performance. Aina by God's grace advance exam kosam qualify aipoyanu. Nenu mains exam aipoi intiki vachaka kuda chala gurtochevadu chala miss ayyedanni.

Next step advance exam elaga aina advance lo qualify ayyi IIT lo seat sampadinchali anukunna but ee madyalo vadu kuda ciaching ki vachadu i was distracted again kani naku sadyam ainantalo kastapadi exam rasanu but exam rasaka naa future naku telisipoindi aa devudini malli adiganu naa korika elago teeradu but atleast vadiki aina IIT lo seat vaste bagunnu ani.
Exam aipoi intiki vellaka chala rojulu vadito matladaledu kani prati kshanam gurtochevadu apudu telisindi naa matti burra ki idi prema ani.intalo oka news vadu advance lo qualify ayyadu vadiki IIT lo seat vachindi ani naa happiness ki aroju haddulu levu aa seat edo nake vachinattu tega dance chesanu. 

Naa lyf lo next step naku Delhi school of economics lo economics honours seat vachindi Delhi university lo idi nenu korukundi kadu kani naku arts ante kuda istame kada ani adjust aipiyanu next few days admissions room teesukovatam anni aipoyai sudden ga okaroju vadi nundi call vachindi.chala happy ga feel ayyanu.

Nenu clg lo settle aipoyanu vadu kuda BHU lo join aipoyadu soo late nduku naa manasulo mata cheppeddam anukunna. kani nduko konni rojulu aagali anipinchindi aaganu. Ee konni rojullo tanalo chala marpu chusanu. Sariga matladevadu kadu idivaraku la emi share cheskovatledu... Emindi raa ani adigite busy ga unna anevadu.Okaroju valla frnd chepadu may be vadi life lo evaro unnaru ani. Chala edupu vachindi. Ee tym lo naa feelings vadiki chepte unna frndship kuda cut aipotundemo ani bayam vesindi anduke cheppadukadu ani decide ayyanu. Vadu nato life long undakapovachu but naa heart lo naa first love ga eppudu untadu.

I hope i could tell him that i love him and my heart beats for him... Kani naku telsu naa life lo ee prblm vachina nannu save cheitaniki naa pakkana tanu eppudu untadu.
Intaki tana peru cheppaledu kada tana peru Krishna naaku istamina god peru... My forever first love...

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